September 19, 2007 | 8:57 pm |
was like, the most nerve racking pre-performance exam i’ve ever had. i mean, i never had like much of a problem with hmp ever before in my life until higher music prelims started. and then everything has been going downhill.
maybe it was since SYF that it started, just that we havent really had any test or anything XD so mrs ee didnt know! haha but then i love music! and valencia said that mrs ee said something about me being very musical! and is yonghui okay? or whatever haha. i think she’s freaked out. she’s probably never had a student who suddenly fell from great heights before. well there’s always a first time o_o if there’s ever another me she knows what to do.
IT’S JUST THE LOOK SHE GIVES ME o_____o that makes me feel like this horrible piece of shit who does nothing and is irresponsible and lazy. well actually it’s probably true. (itai the truth hurts) and then i feel really guilty and bad and scared so much i start tearing up haha. i cried like, probably 3 times in the span of… half an hour. thats crazy.
after she was like “where’s the scores >O” i was totally scores. i was like, WHAT SCORES?? didnt we hand in everything already?? O_O because… well, didnt we??? we did!!! and i thought that was the end of it O_O then i walked in, and she asked that question and then i was so scared all over again. like that time with higher music when i screwed up tiannie’s accompaniment. i shld never have played then, but tiannie insisted, and then and then i pulled her down instead!! T_T wtf.
and then so i was so freaked out i started like tearing but nobody could see then mrs ee said “go and photocopy. now.” and i totally zao4ed from the room and me and val ran to photocopying shop, where the auntie was in the middle of photocopying huge piles of stuff. i bet they’re exam papers and she said it’ll be a long time before they finish printing and i was like AHHHHHHHHHHH so val bought a photocopying card and then we started photocopying and i was getting so frustrated cuz the clefs kept getting outprinted and everything so i just kept pressing the stupid button and freaking out even more and when val said “wow yonghui you are still so composed i think if i were you i’d be crying” i nearly started tearing all over again @_@
haha this is all very malu-ating. but anyway, then we stapled everything and went upstairs, and just when we were waiting, i decided to check the scores just in case, and good thing i did, because the scores were IN A MESS. omg @_@ and then tiannie and rouhui were like there and rouhui was going home and then i was freaking out over the scores and i started crying again though i think my eyes are deep/big so the tears take some time to spill down haha from the time i start crying. and i couldnt see at all because my eyes were so blurred with tears and i panicked so much and tried to find all the pages and put them in order @_@ i mean, in brahms there were 3 same pages at the back and then page number wasnt in order and everything!!!
when we went in i already calmed down, except for the part where i was convinced that mrs ee would minus half my marks before i started playing. so brahms was okay, i quite liked it, though the piece wasnt as blurry as i liked it to be becuase the piano is different. but then for haydn i started without preparing and as we went on i started losing my head and then screwed up my semiquavers and stopped a few times (rmbing val saying that she stopped and i was like a little amused) and then for accompaniment…
val was standing on my left. and then mrs ee and maeho both stared at her. and mrs ee was like “what are you doing there??” and then val didnt have extra score and i was like thinking “OMG DIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIE” so she went out to get hers and then mrs ee was like your score has one page missing and halfway through i was lost! with the face. and i was like oh no die @_@ and then val came back in, and we started playing, and some parts i totally screwed up, and i started panicking, and my face was like 8S throughout the whole song, and then after that mrs ee was like yonghui are you okay? and started asking me this whole chain of are you eating properly? have you been sleeping enough? did you have an argument with someone for a long time? is everything alright in your family? and i was like 8S omg torture torture and her face just makes me really scared and i started like, tearing and nearly crying until she let me out and then i hopped all over the place and val was like ahhh are you okay yonghui!! then i’m like, yeah. okay. i’m okay hahahahaha.
and then rouhui and tiannie came out and i was like =_= i’m so dead ugh. and sat on the floor of the small music room thing. lucky me and tiannie left when mrs ee came round. and then and then we were like all sort of loitering outside, when i heard mrs ee’s heels coming back and i totally freaked out and sprinted all the way into the toilets with my books and scores and everything.
@_@ she wants me to see her by the end of this week. i’m going to die hahaha. she’s like convinced that there’s something behind all this! but actually there isnt o_o; IF SHE CALLS MY MOM I WILL BE SO DEAD. she won’t call my mom. of course not. of course she wont call my mom. thats like a stupid idea. no.
September 16, 2007 | 12:36 am |