October 31, 2006 | 3:15 am |
i dont know about you, (ah but i dont know about me really much either) but i’m glad that i have such cool seniors x)
it’s nice to know that there are nice people existing in this world sometimes, when you’re feeling all shot down and trodden over. that they’re always there to encourage you! and believe in you (even if you don’t believe in yourself) and tell you that you can do it (when you’re quite positive you cant)
i’m a really passive person :/ i like to see good things happening around me and to other people - if it doesnt happen to me i dont really care. my seniors are cool and bonded! and they never have any big conflict. its near utopia! even though they claim that they’re not bonded at all, and everything. i guess their standards are just higher. for me, if i can actually sustain a conversation lasting more than 2 minutes, i think thats good enough. i’m not good at long heart to heart talks (although sometimes, well, its REALLY unbearable, but i always recover!) and i’m not good at long insightful letters that make you tear. but my seniors are!
and they’re everything good that i’m not. every time i say “oh man this sucks. every level its getting worse!!” i dont exclude myself. i know that my seniors are wayyy up there! (: and i’m down here! and i’m glad i have them to look up to, so i can learn from them and be a better person all the time!
that is, if i ever can make myself change, which is, i guess, something else i have to learn. i dont like change.
maybe this is what all the chinese compres in eoys and tuition have been talking about. having someone to look up to, seeing how flawed and ignorant you are - then working hard up towards a bigger goal (and getting there by taking the first step with achievable goals)
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